Real Things yo

So I was at church yesterday

 And I felt really out of place and guilty because I haven't been there in four, maybe five weeks.

I was sitting in youth ministry class when my teacher started assigning verses in the bible when she finally got to me.

"....Stephanie........ right?"

I began shaking my head.

At that moment a girl in my class yelled out, "Aaliyah!!! Hey gurl!! You're here??!!!"

This phrase made me question a lot of things...

I know she had saw me earlier in the rec. room.... why didn't she say hi to me then???

Why didn't anyone else say hi to me then???

Maybe I've changed a bit.......... am I really that unrecongniseable???

Do I REALLY have any friends here??? Did they even care/notice I was gone???

Augh maybe I'm over-thinking things...... I don't know......